IM FREAKING OUT

well, i have only been here two or three weeks, yet i cannot help but have a spazz attack allready! my financial aid is taking forever to get worked out...i had to REAPLY and give all different kinds of proof of income from me AND my parents, and i am worried that this wont get worked out in time for the last day to drop classes! the last day to drop classes and ge redunded is in 5 days. and if i dont have a positive answer that i will be getting enough federal loans by then to cover this semester and my bills, i will need to drop my classes and go home.

another small, but kind of important thing: i only have 5 days to return the textbooks i bought in order to get a full refund!!! i spent just under $300 this semester on books. i dont want to eat that money!!!!

another thing im flipping out about is that i STILL havent been able to get in to an organization around here to do my volunteer work!! youd THINK it wouldnt be so hard. its like this, "look here, i want to give my time to the clients of your organization for FREE! whats the problem?!" but people want a 6 month-year commitment and they cant waiver that because 'its policy". OR the places are just too too far away and i cannot get there by bus and/or walking. also, there has been two organizations i spoke with who "DO NOT NEED MY SERVICES AT THIS TIME". im sure if i wanted to send out mailings, emails, or do filing they would need me. but i really dont want to do that. that SUCKS, ive done it before

so on tuesday i am speaking with the financial aid office about all of this, and im hoping that everything is as it should be and my only concern will be to find volunteer work, or a job. if i dont hear back from any more of the volunteer places i have contacted, i am going to start looking for a part time job somewhere fun. like a flower shop, or a dog groomers, or something. i also have already posted a sign at the local market advertising Dog Walking! i left my phone number AND email, so i hope i get at least ONE response! oh well. probably not. 

thanks for taking an interest in my ramblings. think positive thoughts for me!!!!

and if you pray, i guess you could pray for me. what could it hurt, right?