Hmmm....

why is it that the pop machine at my work says to you "drink cold refreshment now" like its an ORDER?! as if you read that scrolling across the screen and say to yourself, "yes! i MUST get a pop RIGHT NOW!!" wierd....

I can cook AND bake!!

Up until just about a year and a half ago, i never really cooked or baked. The microwave was my best friend, along with any food product that came pre-cooked for me. I nearly burned the house down every time a gave it a shot, and nothing ever turned out right. I always told John, "I will do just about everything for you except for cookin. No homemade meals will be created with THESE hands!" and he didnt really even give a shit!

I never thought i would even ENJOY cooking. But my love and appreciation for John grew and i realized that i WANTED to cook and bake. Ive always been the type of woman to wanna please her man, and take good care of him (i know it, that sounds absolutely pathetic...) so it just suddenly came to me in a natural way. I love it, and Im good at it! I just needed someone to cook FOR, i think.

I made oatmeal chocolate chip peacan cookies. good lord. they were a smash! i modified the recipe just a bit and yumyum!! I am SO excited and proud of myself...I just want to tell everyone about it. Now i cant wait for the holidays!!!

thanks for reading,

Suzy Homemaker

Possibly the Key to Happiness

a lot of people have noticed a change in me. for the better. theyre asking me what im doing! how im doing it, blahblah. so heres my little story....

for a while there, i wasnt very happy. ive got a wonderful man, great friends, sweet doggydog, and a loving family....but something was missing. actually...a few somethings were missing. here was my life about 5 months ago....

i was working at a job i HATED, and theres really nowhere to work up to.

i wasnt going to school.

i looked in the full length mirror after every shower and said, "uck"

i got drunk every friday and saturday 

i felt lonely, though i live with my boyfriend

i always thought the worst thing ever was happening to me when something went wrong.

heres what ive done in the last 5 months to become a "happy" person

i began school again. i knew i wanted to someday have a REAL job, so i cut back my hours at my full time job and im working towards my career goal! working 40hrs at a deadend job that you HATE waking up for in the morning is NOT something youd want to do for another 40 years! women- go to school!!

started walking my dog twice a day. a total of about 40 min. just a little excersize is better than none. if you sit on your ass, eating potato chips all night, in front of the boob tube, you have NO RIGHT to criticize your body! shut up and DO something about it!

im cooking home-made meals. no more hamburger helper! its been chicken, pastas, tuna, veggies...i do not snack continiously throughout the whole day anymore. i only eat meals with maybe a snack here and there in between. just use common sense!! dont eat fast food! and use moderation! instead of drinking four cans of mt.dew every day, treat yourself to one can after a workout! you dont have to "diet" or starve yourself to improve your physical appearance.

ive pretty much quit drinking. i wasnt out of control, but i came to the conclusion the consuming alcohol every weekend was not going to keep my brain very balanced. plus, it was expensive and just not a smart thing for someone to be doing if you want to be fit and healthy (mentally and physically)!

i started to feel better about my body image only two weeks after excersizing every day and eating right. and i hadnt even seen any real pysical results at that time! just knowing that i was making an effort, doing something good for myself, made me feel BETTER about myself!

john is an awesome boyfriend, just an awesome person, really. but another individual is NOT responsible for making you happy. i realized i needed to build a stronger relationship with my friends and family. dont let loved ones drift!! emails are great if you dont have time to chitchat on the phone all day, or if you are like me, and live far away from civilization. make it a point to make PLANS to get together with friends and family. and dont let anything put the kabosh on those plans! if you dont put forth that effort, 3 months will go by and youll realize that you havent seen your best friend, or your mom/dad since you-cant-remember-when! and sometimes, once you drift, you can never go back.

think of yourself as your best friend. if your best friend was down, what advice would you give him/her? *problem: dysfunctional relationship with boyfriend. solution: dump the jerk!! *problem: poor physical self-image. solution: eat right, excersize. *problem: DUI. solution: quit drinking!! people who drink and drive tell themselves that they dont have a drinking problem, they just need to give up their keys when they drink. if you do ANYTHING that results in a negative consequence when you drink....you must quit drinking. *problem: drug abuse/trouble with the law, ect. solution: kick the habit, kick your co-users (friends who did drugs with you). im not talkin pot, here, im talking DRUGS. and speaking of kicking friends....some people need to figure out who their friends REALLY are. take a step back and think of who makes you feel good about yourself, who has always been there for you? who has NEVER talked poorly about you to other people, or told other people your secrets? dont trust someone just because you have fun when you hang out together. one more point on "friends"...your friends shouldnt cause you ANY personal drama. think about that. 

i now tell myself, when something bad happeneds, that it could be MUCH worse. my car is turning in to a pile of shit, but i keep thinking, at least i HAVE a car that starts, runs, and a great boyfriend to work on it for me if i need him to! i realized i whined and cried about my life too often. waa fuckin waa!! that selfpitty horseshit was getting tiresome for me (and others around me, im sure).  

good god! i could go on and on and on....

make your decisions life changes, not short term attempts. youll just be going up and down on your rollercoaster of pschological and physical turmoil. 

my main point to all of this is that YOU are responsible for making yourself happy. make POSITIVE decisions to steer your life in the right direction. in a short time, you will have a much higher self-esteem, a better attitude, and therefor you will just plain and simple feel HAPPY. 

THE END! thanks for reading my ramblings. hope it helps anyone who may have needed it.

I have a NEARLY perfect man!

my man got up yesterday morning earlier than usual, to butter my toast for me, and watch the reaction on my face as i started up my car and realized he had installed a new bigger, more powerful amp the previous night!!! how AWESOME is he?! and he STILL does these wonderful things after a year and 8 months!! i love him so much!! whoever wants a man like mine, say "I!". heehee. sorry for bragging. its just that i want EVERY WOMAN to know that the NEARLY perfect man is truely out there somewhere for you. dont settle for less than you deserve (just dont be a greedy, high maintenance bitch, either!). you have to deserve HIM, as well!
-maggie